hall.

i'm a little bit upset because i'm in a new hall with no one i know other than my roommate and the upstairs boyfriend and everybody else just knows me as felix's girlfriend but i really don't wanna be known as felix's girlfriend because that's labeling me and no one else will bother to be my friend.

plus block supper's tomorrow. my roommate's the block rep and she has to go just because.

i don't think i'm thinking too much but it's just that the loneliness has been kicking in ever since day one of hall/uni life and now, faced with the LOOMING block supper, where everyone will simply eat and stand around in their cliques, i suppose i'll be the wallflower or something since my roommate will be the 'server'(of food) and my boyfriend? well like i said, i don't want to stick to my boyfriend. okay?

plus i'm not exactly a very social person. this is going to be tough. maybe i shouldn't go after all. but that would be worse, right?

now i feel like i'm holding a conversation with the angel and the devil.

i have a very good mind to call steph and her roommate along to the block supper haha. lu you can come too! free food (it's just old chang kee's yam(yuck) puffs and curry puffs. don't even have sotong. sian.)

okay scrape that. i'm not just a little upset, i'm pretty upset actually. i don't mean sad-upset, just pretty upset. iykwim.

:(

*yeah est your hanyu pinyin SUCKS zomg si xin?! best la. thumb thumb (explain this to you next time). hahahaha.

**pad and eric: come back already.

***pad: where does xiao sa zou yi hui come in? goodness.